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Drew 
again the devil today. Always inspires me to do something.
Here is a short ad I just made for my friend who crafts and sells feather earrings. Check out her factory showroom.
A new phase
Income is rolling in steadily from the day job. I’m working more closely with other entrepreneurs in Victoria. I’m doing everything backwards, but I think it’s going to work. Everyone I talk to about my current plans, gets it within 15 minutes. I’m onto something, and I’m 110% positive.
Going to clean up and get to work soon. Can’t wait to find this magic partner anymore. I suck at finding partners. 1 divorce due to sameness, 1 split due to fear, and that’s just my personal life. I don’t talk to anyone who actually works in web development, who wants to take a risk. I have a new friend who might help open some doors, but I have to prove myself to myself. Why? I still can’t figure that out, but I know it’s true.
I like to think I do what I say I will do. Being silent makes this fairly easy. I’ve been working on the “design” of this sociopolitical game for years, without realizing any MVP prototypes. I thought I needed a partner. I probably do. But I clearly have weaknesses, and making friends out of strangers, is it for me. This may be an excuse. Or maybe it is a subconscious strategy, all i know is I have to trust where I’m going and what I can do.
The rest is destiny. or something.
storytime: now and then
i’m working my day job almost everyday now.
i know i can do a better job of it. and so i am.
for the first time in my professional career i feel very appreciated, trusted, and supported by the company i work for. which is great.
i have a hard time explaining to people what i do, because they don’t use these products … ever.
enterprise level ticketing, service catalog, change management, and process automation software, just isn’t everyone’s cup of tea. i understand it. i can figure it out. this makes me valuable. it feels good.
so i work away the days. i take this break to write this post. i’m still learning everything startup. working my online pitch. getting no feedback. my next spare time company task is v2 of prototype screens for what i’ve finally boiled my MVP down to. still wondering when my co-founder or two will show up. i need to make more friends.
speaking of friends … Read more
personal growth
I am a being of light and shadow. So are you. People observe that light comes from the Sun and stars and shines on the Earth. Too often we take this for granted. After millions of years the light and energy that has gathered on this planet have been transformed into an amazing biosphere of energy beings. While the source of life remains a mystery we can easily attribute our continued existence to the “original” energy of the thermonuclear reactions of the Sun. The key is that light has become concentrated in us. We feed on other energy beings and grow our light within. We do this with the intention of shining it back out into the universe. I think individually we are pretty bright, and collectively we are absolutely brilliant.
We are so bright we are actually polluting the world with our brilliance. Some people think this picture is a testament of our power, and they are probably right, but I think this picture is sad. To me it shows how greatly we are wasting our light trying to “beat” the dark. The key is we are beings of shadow and light, and to deny our darkness is a division that does not serve us. We need to reach for a balance or our light may yet destroy us. Read more
the listening machine?
I dug this out of my archive. I liked the pictures I used. Isn’t BC beautiful? Anyways, this is from a Toastmasters speech I gave in July 2009, and it covered some of the basic problems I’ve been approaching. I want to thank Victoria Beaver Toastmasters for cheering me on. They seemed to think I was going to be rich someday. I don’t know if they were right. I think I’m already rich and I sure don’t have any money. 
I just want help building this thing, so I can play it and see if games really can change the world.
I think I’ve done two full iterations of the design and talked to at least seventy-five people directly about it since then and most people are really enthusiastic. I’ve only had one person say it was a terrible idea on a blog comment, I asked him to find others to berate me and stop me from going ahead, but he said it would only take one person to stop a bad idea. Anyone else think that is slightly illogical? I want war to end. Did it work?
I also want to thank Allen for coming up with this draft tweet for entry into a US contest I can’t enter. “Engage politically disenfranchised with online game which displays consolidated opinion and fuels sponsorship of political clarity #100KTwitch” It’s nice to know that someone out there is reading my blog and getting a clear picture of what it would look like to them. Any other enthusiastic readers interested in this game? I want to stress this is a text based game, not video, and not 2d graphical, but still a game with actions to take, an exciting ladder to climb with your friends, and nifty rewards to earn. I would love a set of comments saying “I am interested” or even better “I’ll do everything in my power to stop you, even if I have to do it alone!”.
Love your enemies! Thanks for reading.
quoted and thinking
A while ago, I said something worth quoting. At least @venturehacks thought so. It was fun to watch the dozen or so mentions roll in with my words attached “My exit strategy is death”. There were some fun comments attached to a few of them like: “that’s commitment”, “HARSH”, or “great start-up one liner”. It got me thinking about my commitment and another idea around selling personal investments. I’ve been reading about a trio who are selling a percentage of their future earnings for a one time up front no strings capital investment. Since, I’m in for life, I wonder if I should consider selling this type of investment.
I’m looking for a Canadian angel to be friends with and have a long talk about the future of politics and how games of significance are the future of advertising. I heard the term moon shot a few times the other day. I’m shooting for Venus, whatever that means. 
Would love to hear any opinions or stories about selling future revenue for a cash infusion today.
Thanks for reading!
Dance Video #1
I mentioned before that I’m a nut, and also that I am doing tribute videos for my biggest musical heroes. The main goals of this marketing project are to:
1) get some attention from my friends and see if anyone else wants to watch a crazy person make a fool of himself
2) attempt to pierce public imagination and start a viral campaign to drive some traffic to my website
3) during Take 1 show my raw craziness and dedication to my role as wizard for peace (someone called me a propeller head once (I think they were right) (I should get a purple wizard hat with a propeller on top))
4) during Take 2 release do some market research to help identify: A) who my customer is and B) will they play this game with me?
I’m pretty sure it will take more than the first few videos to get much traction, but I’m happy with the results and want to give a big thank you to Daniel Hogg for filming and editing this round.
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